Three Powerful Words

This post was not in my plans. I had all intention to share a recipe with you all. However, that can wait.  This can't. Today is PS. I Love You Day. This day was created by a teen, who's father died by suicide, and is a day to support those suffering from depression, end bullying and ultimately prevent suicide. Wear purple today to show your support. 

At first I thought this is not relevant to my blog, and went back and fourth if I should post about this. Then I watched the powerful video. It moved me, and it was in that moment I knew I had to dedicate a post to this day. Speaking about depression hits home. It was something that I struggled with for 4 years, later realizing it was a result of my misdiagnosis. (Depression and Anxiety is one of the many possible symptoms of undiagnosed gluten intolerance.) 

For the longest time I was ashamed and embarrassed to talk about my battle with depression, I thought it was my fault.  However, as I healed and forgave myself I realized three things, my struggle with depression was not my fault. No one chooses to be depressed, but what you can do is choose how you are going to overcome it. This poem is meant to share some of  the signs of depression and expresses...

What Depression Taught Me

I never want to go back to a place

so dark and scary 

Feeling a l o n e 

Continuously crying

Full of anxiety

At first I said I was fine 

Later realizing I wasn't 

I was fifteen

Suppose to be loving life 

but I was hurting 

Physically and emotionally 

Isolating myself from the ones who cared and loved me 

They continued to show me their love and support

Using three simple words 

I love you 

Three powerful words 

A phrase that should be said everyday  

It was those three words and a choice 

Which helped me conquer depression

A choice to do something different 

I began to volunteer 

Giving back 

It was good for the mind, and fostered a passion

Before I couldn't appreciate the little things 

but now I can find joy in the simple pleasures

Before I couldn't find good in a situation 

but now even when faced with a challenge, I can find something positive

I never want to go back 

but I am not ashamed 

I am Thankful 

For the continuous love and support 

And for the ability to learn, and find joy in a time that was so dark 

There is no overnight fix 

This struggle is full of ups and downs

But you are not alone 

It's hard to see someone struggle 

But please remember

If you know someone suffering from depression 

Don't ever stop telling them 

I love you 

Because those three words have power, 

and mean so much

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PS. I love you